reflections part 1 on ocf convention

Convention was a new experience. A blend of all different types of Christianity under one roof, called OCF Australia. Seeing how God moves among different types of Christianity, and how the word and the Spirit are both equally as important refreshed my understanding of Christianity.

Not only is it good to be passionate, it is also necessary to follow what God’s word clearly says. I think it’s the first time I paid attention to the bulk of the messages. We studied the books of 1 John and Malachi. Although at first it seemed to me the messages were not as ‘Spirit led’ as I would have hoped, the truth found in the Word shone through to me, and should not discount any kind of Christianity above other types.

First time leading Bible study in the fashion following closely to the Scripture, and it is a refreshing change I learned a lot. To encourage people’s thirst for the Scriptures…I also haven’t been around pure Asian culture for a long time. This was a refreshing change. Makes me miss home a lot. But I also wonder, since God sent me here, shouldn’t I try it out? Dunno.

A lot of things I also just have to let go, and let God. Because when it comes in my hands, it becomes very mixed, screwed up and weird. I’m like trying to force God’s hand or something.

Also recieved my results at the convention, and thank God I am in the honors region. However I just scraped through, and if God is of increase…then? I don’t know what to do.

I think I have more faith in God now, and can discern His leading…then again, shouldn’t make it a proclamation like that.

There’s lots of cool people I met.

I dislike leaving people because it is so to say goodbye. That’s why I try to avoid it, show I’m not sad when I do but actually only later the sadness hits home. Said goodbye to the interstaters, people from griffith, hobart, adelaide who I met at the convention today. Something about the love of God bonds us together. So who are we to forget Him when we’re away from that?  Haiz. Not too happy about my behaviour today. At least I cleared up what I thought I was misunderstanding.

I got to seek God. On everything. Conc. Life is so hard!

Grad shopping

I went to DFO with Keem to slooowly look for a dress to wear for grad today. Quite a big deal, since my parents are coming. Hunted all over the mall till I found a grey, black & white flowy dress. The most unlikely candidates for dressess sometimes make the best buys. It kind of makes me look like a flamingo, or a swan. A graceful swan.

Was the salesgirls’ and Keem’s original opinions. When I thought about it, I realised I liked it, and perhaps it was more “Me” (since I looked good in it) than any of the other flowery dressess I tried on. Shows I have to be educated more about the intricasies of choosing a dress.

We bumped into Prasshanti, a friend of Keem’s. We got to chatting, and eventually went out to dinner together. She asked “are you not ‘into’ getting a boyfriend”. She seemed half incredulous and half nonchalant, I suppose wondering why I had not become involved with a boyfriend even though I’d been on this planet for like 22 years.

It got me thinking. Somehow, putting it that way makes my record seem rather ’clean’. Like no emotional ’transactions’ have passed between me and a male (for lack of a better word.)

But that’s not exactly true. It has, just not the term ‘boyfriend’ to it. You know? Like titles are just titles. But not for “husband”. Or “God.” That’s different.

On another note, I miss home. I want to return to Singapore… yeah this is the family that I miss.